Embonious 4:20am Jan 11 2019
Thanks for your response. I love that we are able to talk here- it's so nice to just know that at least here, people do get it :)
The idea of explaining it as a graph is a great one. It's a simple way to visually represent the whole thing and not be too emotionally raw and make people feel more panicked to find the silver lining.
I can imagine how dealing slow healing on top of everything else must make for some extremely low moments or days. Especially considering your change from an active and full life to now just...waiting, and for who knows how long. I am lucky that while my healing is taking longer than I was originally told, I've always had continuous healing starting from my one month check up, and I still find the waiting with no clear end in sight the toughest part. It really feels like life is on hold and it's hard to make any plans. Having unpredictable healing on top of that must really take the cake!
I think you're also right that this is all just accepting the current state- the down days and dark thoughts always pass, and thankfully I do have enough people in my life who do listen and don't just change the subject to something cheerful.
I think too this dreary, damp January weather is no help!
Thanks for your thoughts, and hope you see more healing on the next x-ray!
14 Sept 2018- hit by car, compound open tib/fib fracture etc, emergency surgery IM nail + screws
19 Sept 2018- released from hospital, NWB
04 Dec 2018- allowed 30%, working towards 100% WB indoors
18 Feb 2019- First steps!