Agata Gadek 4:12pm Aug 6 2019
Hi Nicky
Thank you for a beautiful reply letter. It truly helps to realize that I’m not alone in my struggle. Sometimes it feels like it. Sometimes as times passes I get more down since all I ever heard is patience and I believe I learned it. I was patient, I still am. But at the back of my head I always had hopes like by the summer I can walk in the park, it turns out walking on grass, uneven surface is so painful. I think those deadlines I made in my head put my sanity to test. Of course I came along so much. I can drive, I can move around the house, my leg looks normal. You asked which stage am I? Hm, I just finished/ gave up “ I can push it” face. I think I’m honestly at “ am I suppose to live with this pain for the rest of my life? I don’t want to sound overdramatic ( I feel so compassionate toward people injuries now, and some have it hard). I think in still struggling with it mentally. My life was always always so rushed, I think I kind thought it will back to it. I definitely font miss it, but do many things I use to take for granted. I wish I could feel that “ nothingness” I really do.
I hope your surgery goes well. Please enjoy those stars🥰, that’s dounds really beautiful.
Agata
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