Embonious 1:40pm Aug 29 2019
you words are so familiar to everyone here, I think. The beginning is extremely tough. A very vivid memory of mine is the doctors telling me "14 weeks til full weight bearing" which I interpreted to mean things would be back to normal after 14 weeks.... nope; that was a naive assumption. On the other hand, had they told me how long it would take to fully heal, I might've lost it then and there.
The beginning is the worst, absolutely. Things do start to feel better, and then you have the days or weeks where you're plunged right back into the dark. I am going through a rough week now, experiencing increased pain for god knows why, but these moments happen less and less the more you heal. For me, being able to walk was a huge breakthrough and looking back, a watershed moment in my recovery. I've also adjusted to being less mobile, so the shock of changed circumstances has reduced and almost fully worn off.
Anyway, my feeling is.. when you feel like crap, let it happen. It's ok to be sad- you have a very valid reason for that. A lot of people emphasize positive thinking to those suffering injury or misfortune, which certainly has it's time and place, but it's not helpful to suppress your actual feelings. I hope you're able to get some sleep- I found that helped a lot when I felt in the depths of despair. Sending healing thoughts your way.
14 Sept 2018- hit by car, compound open tib/fib fracture etc, emergency surgery IM nail + screws
19 Sept 2018- released from hospital, NWB
04 Dec 2018- allowed 30%, working towards 100% WB indoors
18 Feb 2019- First steps!