Embonious (185.99.70.---) 8:47am Oct 3 2019
The most I've thought I felt the rod is near the knee joint, but I'm now pretty sure I was feeling the screws, not the rod. The screws do bother me- I can feel them through the skin and the area around them is tender and sore to the touch. I will have it all removed- my surgeon has recommended that from the beginning based on my age (I'm 29). Based on my research, most people want it removed because it's not unusual to feel pain and limitation in range of motion. I am hoping my removal will be a same day surgery! The longer I was in the hospital, the more miserable I felt.
I am walking ok- as a former fast walker, it's interesting to be moving at a stroll now, but surprisingly doesn't bother me much at all (after crutches for so long, any mobility is better!) I do have a slight limp which is exaggerated the faster I walk. I can hurry but it's not a pretty sight. Still no chance of running, jumping, or doing anything with impact, which I think will only be possible once I have my final removal surgery.
I completely understand how you feel- the beginning of the injury, before you see real progress, is absolutely the worst part. I can't really imagine facing another surgery so soon in your recovery, but I am sure you will make it through because there's no other option :)
We are all strong, we can all handle this. I found it helpful to let myself feel what I felt- I'm really opposed to forced positivity as I think it's more damaging that we initially realize when encouraging that mindset. Not to say it's healthy to wallow in self pity, but you have every right to feel upset- your life was massively changed in one second.
I also think mental health is vastly undervalued in relation to long term and/or traumatic injuries- I was diagnosed with post traumatic stress which was a whole other scary experience (thankfully it has faded with time and healing). It could have been mitigated had I been recommend to counseling sooner. So I do recommend mentioning it to your doctor if you feel it could be helpful- they may have someone to recommend. Best of luck!!
14 Sept 2018- hit by car, compound open tib/fib fracture, emergency surgery IM nail + 5 screws
19 Sept 2018- released from hospital, NWB
22 Oct 2018- allowed max 30% PWB
04 Dec 2018- working towards 100% WB indoors
18 Feb 2019- First steps!